"Berjuang"

1 Korintus 2:9

Itu ayat saya untuk tahun ini... "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived, what God has prepared for those who love Him."

Saya begitu bahagia waktu tanggal 1 januari 2013 saya menerima ayat itu. Berbeda dengan tahun 2012 waktu saya menerima ayat tentang 'ketaatan', kali ini saya merasakan sukacita yang luar biasa. Saya merasa bahwa tahun ini akan penuh dengan mujizat, penuh dengan berkat, bebas dari beban berat yang melingkupi kehidupan saya di tahun 2012. Saya percaya bgt tahun ini bakal "REAP THE HARVEST" tahun dimana Tuhan akan memberkati saya NONSTOP. But, well... It might be true? Kalo saya cuman menangkap kata-kata pertama di ayat ini dan melupakan kalimat "...untuk mereka yang mengasihi Dia."(For those who love Him)It would be great senang menyenangkan enjoy asik oke oke aja. Tapi kalau saya take into account kalimat terakhir which is for those who love Him, it would be something 'different'.

What do you mean by loving God? Is it easy...? Ha. Nope! Cinta... Kita bilang kita cinta sama Tuhan.... gampang kalo ngomong doang! Tapi cinta itu terkadang involves Sacrifice, your time, your money, your OBEDIENCE. Cinta butuh perjuangan. Dan Tuhan mau lihat itu... Tuhan bakal "tests" you how much do you love Him? He wants to know what you made of! He wants to see how deep is your love to Him... Because He wants you! He wants you as a whole! And His passion is to have deeper relationship with you...  Deeper.. deeper everyday, because He loves you so much! 

Jadi kalau mau lihat apa yang "Tidak pernah dilihat mata"... "tidak pernah didengar telinga" tidak pernah... "timbul di dalam hati manusia" you gotta show Him that you love Him. If you do it, be ready to reap what you sow... Menuai apa yang kita tabur, sometimes it will be greater! Greater blessings... more than what u could imagine.

And to love Him means... to love Him dengan segenap hatimu, jiwamu, dan dengan segenap akal budimu. Berarti tidak "terbagi", dan itu susah! Butuh perjuangan. Karena hidup kita ga akan lepas dari masalah dan pencobaan. Well, sama seperti kesetiaan.. Kita perlu berjuang, have a "heart check" everyday, being discipline, push ourself a little bit harder.. sampe sama kayak lagu yg bilang, "Dan Kau kan temukan, pada akhirnya ku tetap setia.."

So its not an easy "verse" for me this year. Theres still something God wants me to learn. And there are more "levels" in front of me that God wants to bring me into... Ibarat game, level yg harus ditaklukan masih banyak. Levels of kesetiaan, ketaatan, dan iman. To be the "me" that God intended me to be. And I want to welcome it with smile and gratefulness!

"How I long to be deeper in LOVE ..."

 

 “If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.”
― Charles Bukowski, Factotum

 

Ricky & Shanty Engagement

My gratitude.

Today, I thank God for life.
Untuk nafas kehidupan yang mengingatkan aku akan rahmatNya dan kasihNya yang baru setiap pagi.
I thank God for my family.
I thank God for their love & patience.
I thank God for the joy I found in Him as I pray.
I thank God because He gave me a reason to live.
I thank God for the dreams He put in my heart.
I thank God for His unconditional love for me.
I thank God for "mission" for the assignments I need to do in my life.
I thank God for the unknowns.
I thank God for the past, I thank God for the future.
I thank God for letting me be in the desert for awhile, so I could learn to depend on Him all the time.
Also, I thank God for guiding and helping me walking out of my "desert" with so many lessons and great joy in my soul.
I thank God for the double portion of peace He gave me as a result of my obedience.
I thank God for flowers, they remind me of how God always want to cheer me up and make me happy.
I thank God for His power, membuat saya yakin bahwa Dia adalah tempat persembunyian yang aman.
My refuge of strength, strong tower, my hiding place...
I thank God for His plans.
Sometimes I make my own plans, only to be surprised in the end that His plans are always better.
I thank God for His forgiveness when I don't trust Him enough, when I got worried...
When my FEAR is BIGGER than my Faith,
I'm thankful that I can always hold His hands...
I thank God because He knows my name.
He knows me more than I know myself.
And that He is more concern about me than me about myself.
I thank God because for 23 years, He is my provider.
I never feel alone, I never feel that I'm lacking of anything... He provide for me, He take care of me, He loves me, and He is never late. He knows what I need more than me.
I thank God because when I walked away, He is a faithful Father who long to have another conversation with me. A loving Father who would try to find me when I'm lost, just to hug me in His arm... Just to tell me that I'm not alone, just to remind me that I have a Father who loves me so much. Who cares for me. Who wants me to draw closer to Him, everyday....
Because He is love... He is able.. He is God.
I thank God because He gave me the time and opportunity to learn... to be WHOLE in Him.
And I am thankful for His amazing grace, His grace is sufficient enough for me to grow and to
live life to the fullest.

My Travels.

Last year, bulan September.. Saya dan ayah saya dapat kesempatan untuk keliling ke 3 kota di Australia. Tujuan kita kesana adalah untuk mempromosikan pelayanan/ministry yang kita lakukan di Indonesia. Saya selalu menyukai travelling, buat saya ketika kita mengunjungi tempat-tempat baru, menemui orang-orang baru, melakukan atau mencoba hal-hal yang baru... kita itu tidak saja sedang belajar tentang orang lain, tapi lebih banyak kita belajar tentang diri sendiri. Menemukan hal baru yang kita baru ketahui tentang diri sendiri.

Tahun lalu saya belajar bahwa, masing-masing orang punya talenta. Atau GIFT yang Tuhan berikan. Melalui perjalanan itu, saya menemukan gift saya... Saya juga menginspirasi teman travel saya untuk melakukan hal yang sama dengan saya, yaitu untuk lebih mengasihi anak-anak di panti Asuhan tempat saya bekerja. Selalu ada hal baru yang di dapat, dan hal baru yang dapat diberikan kepada orang lain.

Tahun ini, saya dan tim juga ayah dan ibu saya akan berangkat lagi ke Australia. Mungkin saya tidak akan membagikan/berbicara banyak di dalam gereja, saya hanya akan membantu translate dan membantu mendokumentasikan moment-moment penting dalam perjalanan ini. Tapi saya percaya dan saya mau berusaha untuk selalu belajar sesuatu dari "my travels" atau setiap perjalanan saya. Yang penting, saya tahu saya harus bisa memberikan pelayanan terbaik... Serving people, serving others, dengan cara apa saja.

Teman saya, keluarga saya, orang-orang di dalam gereja...

Ga boleh diem aja, I have to do something to learn something. Not to be passive learner, but active learner. I believe God will give me new revelation and show me something new!


Cant wait!
See you soon Sydney!




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